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Passion..

A person who has a passionate soul can not change who they are.. It surfaces into all areas of their lives, A passion who speaks, acts and breathes passionately can not be tamed..

Everything affects them wholly and completely… Music.. art… words…dance… feelings.. It all overly affects them

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They are naturally inquisitive.. They question everything.. sometimes to a point of exasperation. Until they find what their soul is searching for…

Their highs are insanely high,lifting them up to the peaks of the clouds..
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And their lows are gut wrenchingly low, burying them deep beneath the cold ground..
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One might say they are over baring, that they are clingy, or maybe dramatic.. But the truth is they just feel every single soluble of emotion to the very deepest of their core.. They love passionately..They mourn with fervor… They go through life with an unstoppable, unbreakable zeal..
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To This Day..

This is the most powerful, beautiful, most inspiring and saddest thing i have ever watched. I just wanted to share it with everyone because i feel it needs to be seen by the millions. So i will let the video speak for itself.

Friends You Say..

You know how you always have that friend that just loves DRAMA!?!

I mean no matter what happens she will react dramatically to it, if there is no drama she will somehow find a way to create it and then drag your ass into her drama when you didn’t even want to be part of all that..

The kind of friend who thinks she is so much hotter than all the women ever created in the world( yet so insecure on the inside she has to put down every girl who walks by).

The one who will say ” you know i’m a guys girl, i just vibe better with guys”..( meaning, she is just such a bitch and so manipulative and in no means interesting that no girls want to hang out with her)

Yeah you know the one who will say ” I’m just such a nerd and a tomb boy” ( while wearing fake spectacles, never leaving the house with no make up and wearing skimpy outfits to “play video games with the guys, you know because she is just such a guys girl”.

Yeah, if you are a girl, you have this friend, if you do not then you are probably that friend.. 😀

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The problem with having such a friend is you try your best to avoid her, to get involved in her life, but you just know that some how you will end up in her mess of a life.. Weather she is having trouble with other girls, or having financial troubles( caused by her because she loves shopping so much that she does it even when she can not afford it), or she got fired because she just so happened to talk back to her boss and call her a “worthless BIATCH”, or she suspected her boyfriend is cheating so she tells him some lie to try and catch him in a lie( and then uses you as an alibi for her lie).. It’s always something with this girl.

So like most girls, i have such a friend, and recently her dramatic lying ways have went a tad bit too far( well farther than usual anyway), she took a situation which was rather small, told it to a bunch of people in different versions that only she can manage, and ended up dragging my name straight through the mud from her end all the way to the other end which ended quite badly for me. At this point i pretty much hate her, but being as it is i could not go and confront her because a friend asked me not to, for her sake, and it is pissing me off daily to know that she just walks around thinking that she got away with it..  And i’m so tired of her that I have not been listening to her sorry stories about her men problems, or answering her calls or texts for that matter..

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So how do you deal with such a crazy person?!?! That is the question i am pondering over myself right now. Lets look at a few options.

1. Cutting her out of your life is always a bust, she will find a way to weasel herself back in.

2. Being blunt and telling her just how hair pulling, freaken, insanely annoying could be another way( but of course she won’t really hear you because her ego is so big that she chooses to hear words differently from what you say)

3. Or you could easily just open a can of whoop ass on her annoying ass!! Which i deem the best and funnest solution.. But then i’v been told you can not just go around kicking people’s asses! 😀

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So what do you do with this kind of friend in your life?!?! Do share all.. I’d love to hear everyone’s suggestions. 🙂

My Heart Is Bleeding For Amanda Todd..

I don’t have much to say other than i am in pain to see that a child can be bullied so much so that she ends up seeing the only way out as killing herself. I know i might be a little late to this story, but i just had to say something after i saw that video. I could not stop crying for days on end for the pain that this girl had to struggle through.

Amanda’s ordeal began at the age of 12 when she was fooling around with friends and lifted her her top for someone on the other end of a webcam.

The person was not a boy of her age though, but a suspected paedophile from across the border in America, who went on to terrorize her right up until her death.

“The Internet stalker she flashed kept stalking her,” said Ms Todd. “Every time she moved schools he would go undercover and become a Facebook friend.

“He went online to the kids who went to (the new school) and said that he was going to be a new student – that he was starting school the following week and that he wanted some friends and could they friend him on Facebook.

“He eventually gathered people’s names and sent Amanda’s video to her new school.”

The video and photos went to teachers and parents as well as pupils.

The bullies began to taunt her with names such as “porn star” and Amanda became anxious, withdrawn and desperate to avoid going to lessons.

Police were never able to track her stalker down, but they did trace the messages to the United States.

Despite their investigations though, the man continued to stalk Amanda, and even threatened to circulate the pictures again unless she gave him another “show”.

She refused so he carried out his threat, and her pain was amplified by her classmates who it’s claimed shared the photos on their cellphones.

She was verbally abused and beaten up.

“Everything she said in the video happened over the past two years,” said Ms Todd. “It was horrendous. I think about it now and I think, ‘Oh my God. How did she survive this long with the pain?’ ”

Amanda had made previous attempts to take her own life, but Ms Todd said that in the weeks leading up to her death she had begun to feel “normal” again, doing things like going to the mall with friends again.

I seriously can not stop thinking how is it that no one around her realized what was going on in her life? How is it that the kids who were bullying her were never stopped? It just makes me see how very little we as humans pay attention to others. I will let the video speak for its self..

Watch Amanda’s video below: Warning – graphic content

Amazingly even after death Amanda is still being bullied..I do not not what kind of world we live in where people still try to hurt those who have left this world.

 

I pray for her family and for all the other families who have lost a child to bullying..

Hookers..Hackers And Heartache..

When i was in High school and thinking about coming to university, i had no idea the experience would be completely different from what i have gone through for the past 4 years.. Lets see, in the mist of my 4 years in University i have had a stalker who loved hacking into my email, as well as my boyfriend’s email and threaten him..I never thought that i would have to change my password every day or for my better half to also be very careful what he does because the stalker might want to beat him up or something if he did wrong..  😀 Which i have to admit even though it was a little scary in the beginning it was kind of flattering.. :-)..

Which i have to admit even though it was a little scary in the beginning it was kind of flattering.. :-).. I have witnessed and met about 6 university girls who are hooking, ( girls from countries like Malaysia,Egypt, Sudan, Nigeria, Iran as well as Botswana are selling their bodies for money or even booze in and around Cyberjaya)  Apparently they are hooking their way through college.. 🙂

 And now the latest part of my college experience is a heart break.. I never thought that i would have to deal or try to survive being heart broken because i have always been so very naive when it comes to matters of the heart.. I have never been one to trust easily, i have always had my guard up, that’s why i never even had a boyfriend in high school because there just wasnt any one who got my attention and i didnt want to open up and let any one in.. But then i came to University and met what i thought was a pretty awesome guy, fell overly and insanely in love. I mean when i met him i thought we will be together for ever, he was, i mean still is the one, my soul mate, the one i was supposed to be with, destiny.. The things started going south and now i have to learn to live with this bulging, insufferable pain in my heart, down my gutt, through my head.. I have to live with trying to keep tears from flowing down my face every single hour of the day.. The hardest part about this new venture in my life is trying to paste a happy face on as i talk to random people and as i walk about in the streets.. 

What were you expecting in college and are you experiencing everything that you wanted to? 🙂

Painting The World With Ugliness…

Have you ever asked yourself  what are you doing to make the world better, to increase even one person’s happiness, to help one homeless person?

Most of us never even think about this fact, we walk around consumed in our own thoughts and lives so much so that we never see the terrible environment all around us. We see people being killed, being bullied, being lonely all because we don’t feel it’s worth our time to lend a hand, or even to look and open our eyes to the hurt and pain all around us.

We live in a world of no sense of society, no sense of responsibility, no sense of helping each other, people commit suicide simply because they are lonely and have no one to turn to.

Instead of painting the world with ugliness each and every single second, why dont we all try. If you have the chance to change someone’s life, why dont you take it?

Why dont we start painting the world with love, hope and  a rainbow of happiness??